The Desk, The Life!

Have you ever noticed that your desk/workspace often reflects your life and how it's going?

What kind of desk/workspace do you have?

I have a wooden (unstained) self contained unit that has two doors that I can close to hide all the clutter....hmmm I wonder what that says about my life? Oh and the item is unstained because I was going to stain it when I got it but when my hubby put it together for me and my computer and "stuff" got in there....well needless to say it never got done. Now it's too dirty to stain so I'm going to have to paint it. I am planning on painting it the same colors as my kitchen and it's a high priority spring project for me....if spring ever gets here.

How is your desk/workspace "organized" if it is organized?

I am a visual person and if something needs to be done I need to have a visual reminder, usually a piece of paper or an entry on my outlook calendar or inbox to remind me that something needs to be done. Yes this creates a lot of clutter for me but I know if I didn't have that I would forget to do a lot of "important" things!

In addition to the reminder clutter, things happen to "fall" onto my desk, yes I am mostly allways the culprut - someone gives something to me or I pick something up while cleaning and not knowing where it should go (or being too lazy to put it where it belongs) plop on my desk it goes to deal with it later!

I do have some attempts at organizing my space -- I have 3 wicker baskets (large, med and small) that I try to contain similiar type items. I also have a drawer (mostly where I hide more "things" as well as a cd organizer and a file organizer on the bottom.

What have I noticed about all these attempts at organization....I never look in/at them. I know it's there but I never use the stuff that's in there, it just sits there showing the world that I'm attempting to be organized.

So what does all this have to do with my life?

I think I love clutter -- I think it reminds me that my life is busy and necessary and that somehow I am important. I think I need to be reminded of this daily and I think the clutter is my attempt at reminding others that I am important and busy.

I think the organization items tell me that although I'm "attempting" to be organized that "life" as I know it is not in the organization....life is in the clutter.

Yes it's nice to be organized -- you can find things and things look neat and tidy especially to the outside world but that sounds well ....like not living.

Life happens in the clutter.

But then there comes a point where there is too much clutter isn't there?

I can't find ANYTHING, important things! In addition to feeling needed I feel smothered, I have no time for myself or because of all the paper in front of my computer screen I can't get the solitude and relaxation I need from the reading of my friends blogs and emails.

LIFE has gotten out of control! Mama needs to clean her desk!

I just cleaned off and reorganized my desk yesterday, boy was I in need of that!!

Now I can get back to life again and start adding clutter back to my nice clean desk!

I don't get to my "room" often enough it seems!

It's been too long since I've been here. Actually that's not true I've popped in occassionaly but didn't have the time or incliniation it seems to write. Hopefully I'll get a few moments this time to take a deep breath, breathe out and be able to put some coherent sentences together.

I've been so content and happy lately, it almost scares me, it's been too --- hmmmm perfect is not the right word as it's far from perfect, but it has been more harmonious yes harmonious seems like the right word.

Part of it I think is hubby and I are taking more time for us, just talking. As simple as that sounds we weren't doing that any more it seems. Part of it was just sitting still when we were both together, usually one or the other of us would get up to do something. Now I know I for one have been making a conscious decision to just sit and be still and wait. And sure enough when I do that we end up discussing great books, or discussing future plans and goals, something that we had let slide a bit in the hecticness of life.

The kids are changing too. Both Josh and Noah are getting older -- they seem less challenging than even just 6 months ago. Joshua has seemed to have moved on from his "forgetful" stage, at least he's a bit better. He also is accomplishing some of his long time goals and is getting more time to pursue some of his interests, he's always happier when I give him time to do so. He is beginning to challenge stuff we say or ask, silly little things that are annoying. Just part of growing up I guess.

Noah is seriously growing before my eyes. Certainly not a baby or toddler any more. Almost not a preschooler! He is SO smart it definately scares me at times, but it's also getting much easier as well. He is very independent and strong willed but he is more mature (as mature as a 4 going on 5 year old can be) so it's easier to let him do it "his way" yet still "guide" him which he is more open to now.

Me? I think I'm more content too just because I've "let go" of a few things that I didn't even know I was holding on to. Stupid things like meal times. Simplier really is easier....why do I have to make everything more work than is necessary? I think part of it is I'm looking for all this appreciativeness and back patting and when I don't get it (mostly because they really don't care what they eat as long as they eat) I get ticked and feel the world owe me what I don't know. Instead I've chosen to focus on the important things. Does it matter that the renovations get done upstairs? No, it's more IMPORTANT that I support my husband in getting all things done around here that keep him so busy, the poor guy seriously has no time for himself. Hmmm maybe HE needs a loft!

The weather probably has made a difference too ....spring is in the air even if the white flakes come back to taunt us once in a while. It's been nice to get outside more and just play and relax. I'm even starting to think about summer plans which always lighten my mood.

So all in all I'm feeling good about things and am looking forward to some time to sit and think and ponder (and knit of course). Maybe that will mean more blog entries here to help me "process" some of those thoughts and see where they take me.

As always thanks for listening. I do love having this spot to go just to blab.

Well my string of uninterrupted moments are up. Until next time.