I don't get to my "room" often enough it seems!

It's been too long since I've been here. Actually that's not true I've popped in occassionaly but didn't have the time or incliniation it seems to write. Hopefully I'll get a few moments this time to take a deep breath, breathe out and be able to put some coherent sentences together.

I've been so content and happy lately, it almost scares me, it's been too --- hmmmm perfect is not the right word as it's far from perfect, but it has been more harmonious yes harmonious seems like the right word.

Part of it I think is hubby and I are taking more time for us, just talking. As simple as that sounds we weren't doing that any more it seems. Part of it was just sitting still when we were both together, usually one or the other of us would get up to do something. Now I know I for one have been making a conscious decision to just sit and be still and wait. And sure enough when I do that we end up discussing great books, or discussing future plans and goals, something that we had let slide a bit in the hecticness of life.

The kids are changing too. Both Josh and Noah are getting older -- they seem less challenging than even just 6 months ago. Joshua has seemed to have moved on from his "forgetful" stage, at least he's a bit better. He also is accomplishing some of his long time goals and is getting more time to pursue some of his interests, he's always happier when I give him time to do so. He is beginning to challenge stuff we say or ask, silly little things that are annoying. Just part of growing up I guess.

Noah is seriously growing before my eyes. Certainly not a baby or toddler any more. Almost not a preschooler! He is SO smart it definately scares me at times, but it's also getting much easier as well. He is very independent and strong willed but he is more mature (as mature as a 4 going on 5 year old can be) so it's easier to let him do it "his way" yet still "guide" him which he is more open to now.

Me? I think I'm more content too just because I've "let go" of a few things that I didn't even know I was holding on to. Stupid things like meal times. Simplier really is easier....why do I have to make everything more work than is necessary? I think part of it is I'm looking for all this appreciativeness and back patting and when I don't get it (mostly because they really don't care what they eat as long as they eat) I get ticked and feel the world owe me what I don't know. Instead I've chosen to focus on the important things. Does it matter that the renovations get done upstairs? No, it's more IMPORTANT that I support my husband in getting all things done around here that keep him so busy, the poor guy seriously has no time for himself. Hmmm maybe HE needs a loft!

The weather probably has made a difference too ....spring is in the air even if the white flakes come back to taunt us once in a while. It's been nice to get outside more and just play and relax. I'm even starting to think about summer plans which always lighten my mood.

So all in all I'm feeling good about things and am looking forward to some time to sit and think and ponder (and knit of course). Maybe that will mean more blog entries here to help me "process" some of those thoughts and see where they take me.

As always thanks for listening. I do love having this spot to go just to blab.

Well my string of uninterrupted moments are up. Until next time.